Santaquin:2
I moved home in May of 2007 to start saving money… which for me, is not the easiest thing in the world. I’m terrible at it – flat out. I guess, it’s just not my thing, which is definitely something that I need to get better at. Otherwise the rest of my life is going to be much more difficult than it needs to be. However, my friend Jon wrote this really cool budget on excel… so I just need to learn to apply that, then I won’t have any problems…right?
Anyway… I moved home. The idea was to save some money, which I have kind of been doing, but then some stuff happened with my car… and I’m making about 200.00 less each paycheck than I was at my previous job. All in all though, I love being home! I get to be around my friends that I care and love and my family. It’s nice to be back to the neighborhood that I grew up in. I like living in a small town, it’s a place that I know my neighbors and have all my friends. It’s a great place!
So, my dad is my bishop, which is both a good and a bad thing and then on top of all that, his cousin is the stake president (maybe living in a small town has it’s down side as well). Now – It’s good to have my dad as my bishop, because he wants me to go on a mission as much as I want me to go. However, there is one problem, there are times when I’m treated more has his daughter than a member of the ward. However, I have told my dad about this, and think that we are ok. He understands how I feel, and I’m still trying to understand how he thinks about the whole thing.
My dad was good enough to get me a log in to the lds.org site, they have recently started being able to fill out all the missionary papers online, I love this! It is very convenient and makes getting your call back that much faster! He got me the log in so I was finally able to start getting ready for my mission!
When you finally get to this point, it’s really weird, I’ve had a lot of emotions running around inside my brain. Before I started filling out all my papers I was really nervous, there’s a lot to think about when that’s all you have to do! You start thinking about all the responsibility, where you could possibly go, what could happen, if you’re going to get a long with your companions, are you worthy, is it worth it? The fact that you’re leaving all that you’ve known your whole life, the things that you love and knowing that a lot of the stuff you love will be changed when you get home. You’re going to miss out on a lot of stuff as well. My sister is married, she has been for 2 years, she waiting to have kids, but she could very well have one by the time I get home, I’ll miss her graduation from law school, my little brother’s first date a Christmas and some birthdays. So – there are a lot of things that you just think about all the time when you have nothing else to do. However, now that I’m actually to the point where I’ve started filling out my papers most of my fears have started to calm down and I’m mostly caught up in the excitement. There are a lot of things to be excited about! Just thinking about the places that I’m gonna go, the people that I’m going to meet, and of course, I’m sure that every missionary thinks this, but you just know that you’re going to go out there and change the world, right?
I’m very excited to be going on a mission, I know it’s going to be hard, there are few things in life that are really easy, but I do know that it’s going to be worth it, if I only find one person, it will all have been worth it! I’m sure that the fears will come back, waiting for my call, right before I open my call, the night that I go into the MTC, these, I’m sure will be times that I’m unsure as to what to think, I’ll be slightly sad but I’m sure that it will also be very exciting!
I’ve since filled out the majority of my papers, the only thing that I have left for the rest of them is filling out the dental part, but my dentist told me that all I have to do is take the paper into them and he will fill it out, so not much left there. At the current moment I’m VERY excited and I know that it’s going to be worth it! I’m really looking forward to getting my call and going to the temple! This is great!
Cass