Archive for December, 2007

Thing I’m Grateful For

 At the request of Marla Jane I’ve listed a few things I’m grateful for… 



Things I’m Grateful For


                        ~ The color of the clouds when the sun rises and sets

                        ~ The sound of a child’s laugh, nothing seems to boost my spirit more

                        ~ The struggles of a mother to raise her 5 children (my mom is amazing)

                        ~ For friends that care about me and let me know

                        ~ For the ability to be loved, feel love and love others

~ For those quiet moments laying downstairs on Curtis’ bed, just talking about things… (this is probably how I fell in love with him)

~ Hot chocolate

~ Bubble Baths

~ Sunday evenings with my mom playing the piano and my sister with her violin and me singing

~ Snowflakes

~ Walks around the golf course at night, just to see the stars and talk about life

~ The wisdom of those around me

~This list could go on and on, but I’ll just stop here… I’m just grateful for the opportunity to live!


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            I’m not exactly sure as to how I feel right bow about everything… I’m really excited to be leaving on my mission, I’m very much ready to go, but at the same time I’ve got all sorts of emotions running through me. 

            My mom has gotten to the point where she wants me to spend all of my time with the family, and as great as that sounds, it not something that I want to do right now.  Now I’m not saying that I don’t want to spend any time with my family, but I don’t want to spend all my time at the house.  When it all boils down to it, I want to spend most of my time with Curtis… but that’s besides the point.  I know my mom is starting to freak out, as am I, because we are all starting to realize that I’m leaving soon… I’m not going to be home for Christmas or my birthday and I’m leaving in two weeks. 

            I was at Curtis’ house on Friday, and we were talking about the few weeks before you get ready to leave and as I was sitting there staring up at the ceiling with my head on Curtis’ chest, I just wanted to cry… and I have absolutely no reason why.  I’m not sad that I’m leaving to go on a mission, I’m rather excited about the whole thing.  I’m not afraid to leave home, I’ve already lived on my own for over a year and a half.  I couldn’t explain it at all.  I’m not even the type that really cries.  Then as I was sitting in my kitchen talking to my mom the other day, I had the same kind of phenomenon.  I’m guessing that it’s just that I’m beginning to feel overwhelmed with everything that’s going on, but at the same time, I’m sure having a hard time figuring out what it is that I’m feeling, and I’ve sure never been in this kind of a situation before!

            When Curtis and I were talking about it all, he told me, it’s kinda like the last hour you have right before you go to work, when you’re just trying to do something to fill the time.  It’s a lot like that, but at the same time, it’s hard because the rest of you life doesn’t start until after your mission, so I spend a lot of time thinking about the rest of my life, because I have no idea on what to expect for the next 18 months!!

         Despite all that is going on, I’m beyond excited for everything!  I’m so excited to be able to learn Spanish and teach the people of Chile!  It’s going to be an amazing experience and I’ll be all the better for doing it!  I’m getting closer and closer as each minute ticks by! 

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