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Santaquin:8

Santaquin:8

I’m going to the temple today, I’m really excited and a little scared all at the same time, but I know it will be awesome!  I was initially a little disappointed when my friend Jon told me that he couldn’t come I was really planning on him being there, but he canceled on me.  But I think it will be ok, cuz my family will all be there and I’m really looking forward to that!

As I’m sitting here thinking about the whole thing, I’m feeling a little bad that I got so upset with Jon, I’m really thinking that I need to apologize for acting like such a jerk.  Does anyone else ever think that, after the heat of the moment?  And it’s not that I was yelling at him, or fighting with him, I was mostly just thinking bad thoughts and secretly wanting to strangle him… I sure hope that doesn’t make me evil. 

Anyway, so – I’m going to the Provo temple tonight.  All my aunts, uncles and cousins that are worthy to go are going to be there, I don’t think that I can even imagine how neat that it’s going to be.  Then me and the boys have a temple trip planned to Manti after Cliff gets home in Nov.  So, ready or not, here it all comes!

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Santaquin:7

Santaquin:7

 Hallelujah !!! My call has finally come!!! Whew!  I’m So excited to finally know where I’m going!  This is fantastic!!  I have been called to serve in the Chile Osorno Mission, I get to learn Spanish!!! This fantastic!  I get to learn Spanish and everything!  I will be going into the MTC on December 19th, and my guess is that I will be there for 6-8 weeks while I struggle to learn Spanish and then will be sent to the southern tip of South America.  I figured that this would be a warm mission, but it doesn’t sound like it’s going to be… in my letter I was told to bring thermal underwear and snow boots!  But my mission also stretches about 1,000 miles, so I’m thinking that the southern tip is going to be cold, but the northern is going to be warmer.  Guess we’ll just have to wait and see! But I’m super excited and the funniest thing about it all, is that just last week I was telling one of my friends and her mom that I had a feeling that I was going to go to Chile!  How crazy is that?  I know this is where I’m supposed to go though, and nothing is going to stop me!  YEAH!!!

 My Mission

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Santaquin:6

Santaquin:6

            I couldn’t even sleep this morning after I woke up initially, I can hardly stand the anticipation of getting my call, it’s seriously going to drive me crazy!!  Every time I start to think about it I get butterflies in my stomach and I get all nervous!  I’ve decided that I don’t handle extreme excitement very well.  And only because my friend just got married, I have to wonder, does it feel like this when you get married too?  I’ve never felt this nervous before, but I’ve also never had this kind of life changing experience before.  I’m going to have to do some investigating with all my guy friends that have gone, and see how they felt about it all.  I was so anxious this morning that I wanted to call in sick, just so I could sit out by the mail box and wait for my call to come… that would have looked really silly I’m sure.  Then I also want to go home on my lunch break and see if it’s there, but what’s the point of that when the mail doesn’t even come until 3 or 4?  Ugh… this whole thing is going to be the end of me, I’ll really be a stronger person if I come of it all alive… I know I’m being over dramatic, but that is definitely how I feel right now!

            I think that I’ll just be happy when it’s all over with, but then again, I can only presume that it’s going to feel this exact same way when I get ready to go into the MTC, there’s a part of me that’s hoping I’ll be able to go to an MTC that’s in another country so I don’t have to be in Provo.  I’m thinking it would be easier to just make a clean break from the whole thing, Provo is just too close to home and I’m not sure if it would be easier or harder.  I mean… what happens when I run into someone that I know really well, especially if it’s one of my guys?  I can’t hug them or anything and that would be just plain torture… ugh!  There are so many things to think about when you’re getting to this point… I almost wish that I could go to bed and wake up after it’s all over, but then… where would the growth come in to play.  I mean, that’s a big reason that we do a lot of the stuff that we do, right?  Right.

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Santaquin:5

Santaquin:5 

            The stress in my life and house is definitely building!  And it all blew up last night in my living room after family prayer.  My dad got mad at me Saturday morning, because I really haven’t wanted to open my call in front of everyone, I really just want it to be w quiet thing, plus I’m just really nervous about the whole thing.  I figure that I could open it and have everyone come over to my house and then I could call them and let them all know where I’m going.   My dad told me that I needed to quit being selfish and invite the family over to see me open my call, and that it isn’t just a me thing, it’s a family thing. 

            My dad tends to say things that sound like ‘it’s my way or the highway’ even though he doesn’t necessarily mean it that way.  Even though I know this, when tension is high and stress is as well, you don’t really take the time to read between the lines and see what it is that he really means.  Then there is also the fact that my dad and I are a lot a like, and we tend to but heads every once in a while, not too often, but it does happen. 

            So I was going to just succumb to the whole thing, but I was saying something to my mom about how I really didn’t want to do the whole thing, and she said that I should just do what I want to do.  But dad must have said something, and so last night we were talking about it and we both just blew up.  My dad’s sick of hearing my whine, but mom doesn’t want to hear it anymore, so my dad said, Fine! Just do it how you want to do it, but of course that’s not what he wants, and he says it with the tone of,  ‘you can do what you want to do, but I’m not going to be happy about it’.

            So now here I am, mad at my dad and not sure what I should do.  One of my coworker suggest that I open it in my room and then play hangman and see if everyone can guess where I’m going.  I thought it would be fun to have everyone write down where they think I’m going to go and have a prize for the person that guess the closest.  I should have my call tomorrow or wed though, so I better decide what it is that I want to do soon, because I don’t think that I’m going to be able to handle another encounter with my parents!

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